I heard this song recently on the Christian station in my car and felt the tears pour from my heart as it spoke to where I am right now.
My heart cries out with the words of this song; a broken, bruised heart begging for an answer; a desperate plea to understand God's heart through it all. I don't have the answers and I don't understand why. I'm struggling so deeply at present, worn from fighting a battle for which I cannot see the purpose. My heart feels so heavy with weight of this burden I daily carry while many days I pour myself into caring for many I'd love to trade places with. Some days the comfort of my bed and the respite from my problems that sleep provides seem like the only solution in dealing with the pain of this journey.
I don't understand and I've shouted 'Why' to God so many times. He knows my heart, He knows the journey. He see the bruises and the broken spirit and only He can heal. He can mend my heart and only He can make something out of the ashes of my life. I find myself clinging many times to a thread of hope, knowing that God's plans are greater than mine. I don't understand why the burden of this journey was given to us but I have to keep trusting that He knows. He knows my heart and has seen that beyond the smile on my face is a heart that is worn and bruised...and I know He's there to help mend and provide rest in the battle.
I ask only one thing, please pray for us. This journey is a minute-to-minute struggle and I feel my faith constantly tested. But the outpouring of love and prayers is some days the only thing that allows me to breath through the suffocating pain. Thank you again to those who have stood by us and continually cheer on the sidelines. Your love and support is proof that God is ever faithful and present!
